Enemy Infiltration

Due to a series of unfortunate events this blog is relocating to prevent any further invasion of privacy. If you have been following me silently and wish to continue please send an email to double_dudes@hotmail.com, and i will provide you with a link to my new blog. Apologies for the inconvenience

In closing i would love to leave with a quote from the great Ralph Waldo Emerson,

Whoever is open, loyal, true; of humane and affable demeanour; honourable himself, and in his judgement of others; faithful to his word as to law, and faithful alike to God and man....such a man is true gentleman.

Ode to an old friend

So this post is for a good friend of mine, whom i lost contact with a few months ago. We recently met up over a beer and talked about the good old days, the days when we would drive around the shire after school with Guns n Roses blaring, singing one of our favorite songs of ours "back off bitch". Your a champ mate, we'll do it again sometime. But for now, the lyrics of the great Axl Rose, a musical legend! I know the problems you are having at the moment, this song is sooooo  for you!!!!

"Back OFF Bitch"

Oh baby, pretty baby
Oh honey, you let me down honey
I ain't playin' childhood games
no more
I said it's time for me
to even the score
So stake your claim,
your claim to fame
But baby call another name
When you feel the fire,
and taste the flame

Back off, back off bitch
Down in the gutter dyin' in the ditch
You better back off, back off bitch
Face of an angel with the love of a witch
Back off, back off bitch
Back off, back off bitch

Makin' love
Cheap heartbreaker, broken backed,
Nasty ballbreaker, stay out of my bed, outta my head
If it's lovin' you,
I'm better off dead

Back off, back off bitch
Down in the gutter dyin' in the ditch
You better back off, back off bitch
Face of an angel with the love of a witch
Back off, back off bitch
Back off, back off bitch

Emotions ripped, gone on a binge
Life lipped, I said you're off the hinge
Tellin' lies of such fame and glory
I don't even wanna hear your story

Back off, back off bitch
Down in the gutter dyin' in the ditch
You better back off, back off bitch
Face of an angel with the love of a witch
Back off, back off bitch
It's such a pity that you're such a bitch

Back off, back off bitch
It's time to burn-burn the witch
Back off, back off bitch
Back off, back off bitch
Back off, back off bitch
Bitch
Bitch
Bitch
Bitch
Hey wha'd'ya think he's tryin' to say there, anyway?
I think it's something each person's s'posed to take in their own special
way
Fucking bitch

Surgery

So i know who you are,
and when i find out what you've been saying,
im going to cut out your tongue and feed it to my dog

Rest assured, i wont sleep until your dead and buried,
you dirty little motherfucker,
man up, grow a dick and some balls, and come and talk it out you little shit

Nothing left to loose

Something's in the air tonight,
The sky's alive with a burning light,
You can mark my words, something is about to break

Bring down the ringleader

Ohhh, if there's one thing I hang onto,
That gets me through the night.
I ain't gonna do what I don't want to,
I'm gonna live my life.
Shining like a diamond, rolling with the dice,
Standing on the ledge, I show the wind how to fly.
When the world gets in my face,
               I say
HAVE A NICE DAY

The ignore button on facebook is getting a workout

Warning: This scathing criticism may contain explicit language

To all you fuckers out there who were my "so-called friends", I hope you had fun

I know i didn't!

And if you all wanna know why i don't add you on facebook, take a wild guess. In case you didn't know, I think you bastards are scum. You wanted me to fall like a domino.I think that you will all be pleased to know that I just spent my weekend with the best people in the world, and i haven't thought about you guys once since I left. You used to bother and possess me, but my new friends, they've helped me to erase you all from my mind. So long Fuckers!

Hallelujah.

Fake Plastic Love

She looks like the real thing
She tastes like the real thing
My fake plastic love
But I can't help the feeling
I could blow through the ceiling
If I just turn and run
And it wears me out, it wears me out
It wears me out, it wears me out

A heart 
                that's          
 
                                  full up

         like a landfill

She builds quick machines

When you seek me you destroy me
Rape my mind and smell the poppies
Born in blood in every single time

Always keep me under finger
That's the spot where you might linger
But I see some type of pleasure in my mind

Yeah, here comes the water
It comes to wash away the sins of you and I
This time you see
Like holy water
It only burns you faster than you'll ever dry

philosophizing

Perhaps I know best why it is man alone who laughs;

                                                                   he alone suffers so deeply that he had to invent laughter.

beginnings

It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word
And then that word grew louder and louder

Trippy

How come I end up where I started
How come I end up where I went wrong
Won't take my eyes off the ball again
You reel me out and you cut the string.

You used to be all right
What happened?
Et cetera et cetera
Facts for whatever!
15 steps
Then a sheer drop

Neutron Star

Right now, im gazing at you from my bedroom window, your pretty small and amazing, but know this, im wishin on you, so don't let me down

The girl next door

I think i like you... you just moved in today... we had a nice little chat and from what i can tell your kinda cool.... for the record, your eyes are the most beautiful i have ever seen, truly, they mesmerized me!

I wonder what will become of us?. Hope we can talk again soon, I'd like to flirt a little more ... Could this be a classic story of the girl next door? I really hope so

grip

In a world of disorder and disaster and fraud, sometimes only beauty can be trusted. To devote yourself to the creation and enjoyment of beauty, then, can be a serious business, not just a means of escaping reality, but sometimes a means of holding on to the real when everything else is flaking away into rhetoric and plot.

The Quest for Truth

I've come to believe that there exists in the universe something I call "The Physics of The Quest"- a force of nature governed by laws as real as the laws gravity or momentum. And the rule of Quest Physics maybe goes like this: "If you are brave enough to leave behind everything familiar and comforting (which can be anything from your house to your bitter old resentments) and set out on a truth-seeking journey(either externally or internally), and if you are truly willing to regard everything that happens to you on that journey as a clue, and if you accept everyone you meet along the way as a teacher, and if you are prepared - most of all - to face (and forgive) some very difficult realities about yourself....then truth will not be withheld from you. Or so I've come to believe.

Horticulture

Plant an expectation                                       


                                       reap a disappointment

Answers

Faith is walking face-first and full-speed into the dark. If we truly knew all the answers in advance as to the meaning of life and the nature of God and the destiny of our souls, our belief would not be a leap of faith and it would not be a courageous act of humanity; it would just be ... a prudent insurance policy.

Words from a very wise lady

A friendship can weather most things and thrive in thin soil;

                                        but it needs a little mulch of letters and phone calls and small,
                                                          silly presents every so often -


just to save it from drying out completely.



 

CrAcK

She's got you high and you don't even know yet
She's got you high and you don't even know yet
It's the search for the time before it leaves without you
Have you lost your mind or has she taken all of yours too?
Whats this about? I figured love would shine through
We've lost romance this world has turned so see through
Open your mind, believe it's going to come to
Keep romance alive and hope she's going to tell you

3am Epiphany

To dream a new love
and to let oneself go
for a free abandonment
on the invisible waves
of a sound - to hear...

to go with the thought
and to embrace the horizon
with a glance up to the point
where it slightly bends
to dream...

a new love to discover
deep in every solitude so that
it becomes an indefatigable
custom that never dies...

to imagine a new love
thats born with free hands
to help it to walk and
to give it a meadow
where it can run on
to continuously give it more
a little more
and even more
to let it go until
it learns how to fly...

to dream and to
unexpectedly find oneself
with their hand in yours
and to understand that you
had already chosen us...

a new love to discover
deep in this solitude
with the words you can express
at my age of restlessness...

to imagine a new love
that has fantasy's eyes
to give it all its value
in my moments of depression
to give it always more
a little more
a little more
and even more
to let it go until
it learns how to fly...

to dream a new love
and to finally wake up
in the new sun while the
shadow of my heart follows
the sea - to dream ...

carburetor

Right Now                       



                         I'm Living                                    
                      
                                                                         On Fumes


Could somebody please fill the tank

Prism

Maybe I know, somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love doesn't exist
And we've got to find other ways
To make it alone
Keep a straight face

And I've always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable, distance
And up until now
I had sworn to myself that I'm
Content with loneliness

a worthy motto

The Italian Way... Work to live, not live to work

fear

i fear no man nor woman,
But i fear god, who holds my life,
In the palm of his hand,
and has the power to make me or break me

Inconclusive

What have i said, I do not know
What have i done, I do not know
What have my actions conveyed, I do not know
If you know, feel free to tell me

Sometimes you just want to quit

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest, if you must, but don't you quit. 

Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about,
When he might have won had he stuck it out;
Don't give up though the pace seems slow
You may succeed with another blow. 

Often the goal is nearer than,
It seems to a faint and faltering man,
Often the struggler has given up,
When he might have captured the victor's cup,
And he learned too late when the night slipped down,
How close he was to the golden crown. 

Success is failure turned inside out
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far,
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.

possibly

could you be the only exception?

An interesting ordeal

Have you ever wondered, why love is the only emotion that you can't turn off. I mean, anger, stress, sadness, anxiety, bitterness > they are all just a state of mind. But what about love > is there anyone out there who can simply switch it off. If you can, you are special, and I would like to know your secret.

conclusion

it really hurts me deep inside, i try not to show it, i feel like a ghost sometimes

all the world is a stage

Fade in, start the scene
Enter beautiful girl
But things are not what they seem
As we stand at the edge of the world

"Excuse me, sir,
But I have plans to die tonight
Oh, and you are directly in my way
And I bet you're gonna say it's not right"
My reply:
"Excuse me, miss
But do you have the slightest clue
Of exactly what you just said to me
And exactly who you're talking to?"

She said, "I don't care, you don't even know me"
I said, "I know but I'd like to change that soon, hopefully"
Yeah, we all flirt with the tiniest notion
Of self conclusion in one simplified motion
You see the trick is that you're never supposed to act on it
No matter how unbearable this misery gets

"You make it sound so easy to be alive
But tell me, how am I supposed to seize this day
When everything inside me has died?"
My reply:
"Trust me, girl
I know your legs are pleading to leap
But I offer you this easy choice-
Instead of dying, living with me"

She said, "Are you crazy? You don't even know me."
I said, "I know, but I'd like to change that soon hopefully"
Yeah, we all flirt with the tiniest notion
Of self conclusion in one simplified motion
You see the trick is that you're never supposed to act on it
No matter how unbearable this misery gets

I would be lying if I said that things would never get rough
And all this cliche motivation, it could never be enough
I could stand here all night trying to convince you
But what good would that do?
My offer stands, and you must choose

"All right, you win, but I only give you one night
To prove yourself to be better than my attempt at flight
I swear to god if you hurt me I will leap
I will toss myself from these very cliffs
And you'll never see it coming"
"Settle, precious, I know what you're going through
Just ten minutes before you got here I was gonna jump too"

Yeah we all flirt with the tiniest notion
Of self conclusion in one simplified motion
You see the trick is that you're never supposed act on it
No matter how unbearable this misery gets

never let me go

stay with me... never leave me... without you i am lost.... chaff,  floating in the wind

the metaphysical

If it hurts this much,
Then it must be love,
And it's a lottery,
I can't wait to draw your name.
Oh i'm trying to get to you,
But time isn't on my side.
If the truth's the worst I can do,
then I guess that I have lied

Keeping me awake,
It's been like this now for months.
My heart is out at sea,
My head all over the place.
I'm losing sense of time,
And everything tastes the same.
I'll be home in a day,
I fear thats a month too late.

Am i keeping you awake? If i am then just say.
You can make your own decisions; you can make your own mistakes.
I'll live and let die all the promises you made,

That night I slept,
metaphorically on your side of the bed so,
It was ready when you got home.
We're like noughts and crosses in that,
Opposites always attract.

You always have your way,
For now it's too soon for you to say,
Will we be always, always?

meh

I sit here at the keyboard, warm tears rolling down my face. Yeah, i am having an emotional night... this happens every once in a while.... but its good you know... its good to cry.... its good to let it out... cos if you bottle it up.... you die inside... but i think a part of me is dead, well dying anyway... what is the point of life... we eat, sleep, work and die.... sometimes i wish God had given me a simple life.... one which entailed little effort... at least then i could wake up and appreciate all those things around me... yeah im having a bitch like a little girl... and well, it's ok.

From time to time, something really weird happens to someone. From time to time, that someone is you.
I've cried like a little baby and smashed my head against the wall, sometimes i just roll up in a ball in my bed and cry. Yes, i am complaining about life, and no, i don't expect anyone to understand. And no, its not about rejection, or even religion.... its about wanting something so badly when you know you can't have it. It's about constantly getting dealt the cards 2 and 7, the worst cards in the deck which you somehow must make a play out of. It's about trying to do your best all the time.... sometimes i wish i could just fall... not too hard ... but hard enough to bring things back into perspective.  Im sick of it, im tired of it.... i want more... and i know i wont get it.... thats what burns the most

broke

I wonder if we'll smile in our coffins while loved ones
Mourn the day, the absence of our faces, living, laughing,
Eyes awake. Is this too much for them to take?

Too young for ones conclusion, the lifestyle won.
Such values you taught your son. Thats how!

Look at me now. I'm broken.
Inherit my life. I'm broken.

One day we all will die, a cliched fact of life. Force fed
To make us heed. Inbred to sponge our bleed. Every
Warning, a leaking rubber, a poison apple for mingled
Blood. Too young for ones delusion the lifestyle cost
Venereal Mother embrace the loss. Thats how!

Look at me Now. I`m Broken-I'm-broken-I'm-broken-i'm-broke

Marie

Stuck here, in the middle of nowhere,
With a head ache, and a heavy heart,
Well nothing was going quite right here,
And I'm tired, I can't play no part.

O come on, come on,
O what a state I'm in,
O come on, come on,

Why won't it just stay here?
Help is just around the corner, for us.
O my head won't stop aching,
And I'm sat here, licking my wounds,
I'm shattered,
But it really doesn't matter,
'Cause my rescue is going to be here soon.

O come on, come on,
What a state, I'm in,
O come on, come on,

Why won't it just sink in?
Help is just around the corner, for us,
Help is just around the corner, for us,
Help is just around the corner, for us.

this is my wish for you

Comfort on difficult days, smiles when sadness intrudes, rainbows to follow the clouds, laughter to kiss your lips, sunsets to warn your heart, hugs when spirits sag, beauty for your eyes to see, friendship to brighten your being, faith so that you can believe, confidence for when you doubt, courage to know yourself, patience to accept the truth, 

Love to complete you

my angel

Standing there by the broken tree,
Her hands were all twisted, she was pointing at me.
I was damned by the light coming out of her eyes.
She spoke with a voice that disrupted the sky.
She said 'Walk on over yeah to the bit of shade,
I will wrap you in my arms and you'll know you've been saved'

prostrate

                                    While you were sleeping I figured out everything,
                  I was constructed for you, and you were molded for me.
Now I feel your name, coursing through my veins.
                                               You shine so bright it's insane, you put the sun to shame.

draw the line

Yeah, how long must you wait for him?
Yeah, how long must you pay for him?
Yeah, how long must you wait for him?

If you go, if you go
Leaving me here on my own
Well I wait for you

mmm pasta

song of songs

Maybe I hang around here
A little more than I should
We both know I got somewhere else to go
But I got something to tell you
That I never thought I would

You don't have to answer
I see it in your eyes
Maybe it was better left unsaid
This is pure and simple
I should realize

I'm not trying to make you feel uncomfortable
I'm not trying to make you anything at all
But this feeling doesn't come along everyday


If we both were born
In another place and time
This moment might be ending in a kiss
But there you are with yours
And here I am with mine
So I guess we'll just be leaving it at this

lovely

I found myself tonight in a difficult situation, having to explain to my dear sister that she in fact has a healthy body image and will not end up as a spinster. In my opinion, beauty is completely subjective. I think your beautiful sis. Don't change for anyone or anything!You are perfect just the way you are...

Proposition

The thought of all the stupid things i might say,
Oh no, what's this?
A spider web, and I'm caught in the middle,
But i don't wanna run, i wanna stay
suspended there, on this joyous day

I don't want to cause you trouble,
And I don't want to do you wrong,
And I, well if I ever caused you trouble,
I'd probably just recede back into my own bubble,
You see, her, she's been sized down to rubble

O no, I see,
A spider web and it's me in the middle,
So I twist and turn,
jerk and fiddle

Will you join me in my web?
or would you rather watch me in torture as i fizzle

The right time

In a haze, a stormy haze
I’ll be around, I’ll be loving you, always
Always

Here I am and I'll take my time
Here I am and I’ll wait in line, always
Always

You do Know

If he'd been a dog
They would've drowned him at birth
I want you to know
He's not coming back
Look into my eyes
I'm here
Don't look down
It's the only way you'll know im telling the truth

Orbiting your planet

A dull spectrum
of bone gray
and yellow
silt

Lies at the edge,
the tendrils of my heart wilt

upon the icy chasm that lies deep within,
to love and cherish
could that be a sin?

when all is done and nothings let in
will i continue to see your souls inner twin
the one who comes and goes now and then
who floats along the firmament with a warm cheeky grin

Parasitic bloodsucker

I                                                                                          posit

the                                                                                                                                     question,
                                                              what is

the most                                                                                     resilient parasite?   

An                                                                                                                                 idea

                                                                   What if.....?

chemical reaction

Shell smashed, juices flowing
wings twitch, legs are going,
don't get sentimental, it always ends up drivel.
One day, I'm gonna grow wings,
a chemical reaction,
hysterical and useless

You know, you know where you are,
you know where you want to be, but
floor collapsing, falling, bouncing back
and one day, I'm gonna grow wings,
a chemical reaction that fuzzes and spins

Fated?

what if i knew,
what if you knew,
what if i had a crystal ball,
would it change any of this at all

don't wanna make a mistake
or cause any unnecessary heartache
for yours of my sake
what if I were smiling and running into your arms,
would you see then?
what i see now
 

anatomy

A
                                                                            heart

that
                                                   is                                                                    overflowing 



                                                           like a landfill

mechanics

We                          come                                       to                                      love 

not                                                         by                                            finding


a perfect person,                                       but by learning          


                                      to       see an          
                                                                          imperfect person                                                                 perfectly.

UP IN THE CLOUDS

i am up in the clouds
                                      and i can't and i can't come down

there's a gap in between
                                                                                      there's a gap where we meet
                                                 where i end and you begin

now

Still my heart and hold my tongue
I feel my time
My time has come
Let me in
Unlock the door
I never felt this way before

And the wheel just keeps on turning
The drummer begins to drum
I don’t know which way I’m going
I don’t know which way I’ve come

Hold my head inside your hands
I need someone who understands
I need someone, someone who hears
For you I’ve waited all these years

For you I’d wait 'til kingdom come
Until my day, my day is done
And say you'll come and set me free
Just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me

In your tears and in your blood
In your fire and in your flood
I hear you laugh, I heard you sing
I wouldn’t change a single thing

And the wheels just keep on turning
The drummers begin to drum
I don’t know which way I’m going
I don’t know what I’ve become

My Lamentations

Will I drive you away?
I know what you'll say.
You'll say, "Oh, sing one we know"
But I promise you this,
I'll always look out for you.
That's what I'll do.

My world is yours.
It's you that I hold on to.
That's what I'll do.
But I know I am wrong,
And I won't let you down.

But I'll sing
I'll cry
I may even try and fly

cos

Yeah I see sparks,
Yeah I see sparks,

(..........................................................................)

I won't change for her,
                                                    But I will for you

fucked up

the mongrel cat came home

holding half a head
Proceeded to show it off
to all his new found friends
he said "i been where i liked
i slept with who i liked
she ate me up for breakfast
and screwed me in a vice

My thoughts are misguided and a little naive

I twitch and i salivate like with myxomatosis
you should put me in a home or you should put me down
I got myxomatosis
I got myxomatosis
But i know what i want and need...
It's not you, it's you

Am I >>

Empty,
                     Blank,
unmotivated,
              indifferent,
  unpertubed,
                       useless

I am not these things, or am i?

drone

I can't sleep
Why can't someone hold me?
I need warm
My restless body cracks and moans
I am a restless drone

not me

That there
That's not me
I go
Where I please
I walk through walls
I float down to see thee
I'm not here
This isn't happening
I'm not here
I'm not here

Wanna come on a journey

What would I do?
What would I do?
If I did not have you

Open up and let me in
Let's go down the waterfall
Have ourselves a good time, it's nothing at all
It's nothing at all
Nothing at all

Never look back
Never look back

Soembody please tell me... Do i live in a glass house?

Well of course I'd like to sit around and chat
Well of course I'd like to stay and chew the fat
Well of course I'd like to sit around and chat
But someone's listening in.
So theres really nothing to win

Not the same problem, another problem..... to add to a mountain of problems

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you think you'll lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
But who will try to fix you?

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Tears stream down on your face
When you think you'll lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes

shiver

I don't know if you've noticed
But I'm trying not to show that
I'm scared that one day
I might wake up and realize that you are not there.

Acceptance

Excuse my lack of eloquence tonight,
something really just wasn't right,
But Ive come to accept it, i guess its ok
some things are meant to be this way

A wise woman once told me,
never ever fear,
for one day
you will come to appreciate the tears 

When sadness clusters and pulls on your heart
Thats when you kinda know, its time to depart
Lucky for me, a friend made things alright and
helped me get through a really tough night

................................

I tried,
I failed,
I'm not one of those persons who will wait forever,
so i guess this is it
terrible as it is
as much as it hurts
im not gonna do it no more
cant keep torturing myself like this
some people can do it, i can't
i know this will never work
and i accept it
Goodbye

I GIVE UP!

BLANK

I fucken hate you!

You may well be my aunty by blood,but what you did today
it can only be described in two words
  fucking                     disgraceful

I show you no respect,
because you deny me and my family of respect
How dare you?
How could you?

I know i have to love you
But i really don't like what you have become
You need help, and i feel sorry for you
stop taking the pill of bitterness, its poisoning you

If you loved my grandfather,
you wouldn't have acted like such a fool
and caused him pain on this day
how selfish of you to take that away from him
and on today of all days

im not ten years old anymore,
i will tell you when your wrong
respect is mutual, and you show me none
so don't expect any

I will always love you,
but i really dont like you.
stop causing me and my family pain
You really are a pain

A true fighter...

I saw you tonight
It had been a while
But it's good to know your ok

I just wanted to say
keep on fighting, keep on keeping
you are a true inspiration

You look, well a little more frail since i last saw you
I just wanted to tell you that you inspire me
My troubles and worries are but a drop compared to yours

Thanks for putting things into perspectives for me
I know God has a purpose for you
and he is fulfilling it everyday

You are someone who lives life to the fullest
and that quality, is hard to come by these days
Keep it up champ

Dear Heart,I hope you're right

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my heart fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call?
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?


I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you in my life?

I don't know life so far away
But I know that its just a trip
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I hope I love you all my life

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don’t wanna run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

On a slightly lighter note...

Till ye have battled with great grief and fears,
And borne the conflict of dream-shattering years,
Wounded with fierce desire and worn with strife,
Children, ye have not lived: for this is life.

FUCK IT...

I don’t know but
I think I maybe
Fallin’ for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe I should
Keep this to myself

I am trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So I’m hiding what I’m feeling


I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I may be fallin’ for you

Please, Let Me Love You

Baby I just don't get it
Don't want you to get hurt!
I know you smelled the perfume, the make-up on his shirt
You don't believe his stories
You know that they're all lies
Bad as you are, you stick around and I just don't know why

If I was ya man (baby you)
Never worry bout (what I do)
I'd be coming home (back to you)
Every night, doin' you right
You're the type of woman (deserves good thangs)
Fistful of diamonds (hand full of rings)
Baby you're a star (I just want to show you, you are)

You should let me love you
Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need
Baby good love and protection
Make me your selection
Show you the way love's supposed to be
Baby you should let me love you, love you, love you

Listen
Your true beauty's description looks so good that it hurts
You're a dime plus ninety-nine babe
You know what you're worth
Everywhere you go they stop and stare
Cause you're bad and it shows
From your head to your toes, Out of control, baby you know

If I was ya man (baby you)
Never worry bout (what I do)
I'd be coming home (back to you)
Every night doin' you right
You're the type of woman (deserves good thangs)
Fistful of diamonds (hand full of rings)
Baby you're a star (I just want to show you, you are)

You should let me love you
Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need
Ooh Baby good love and protection
Make me your selection
Show you the way love's supposed to be
Baby you should let me....

You deserve better girl (you know you deserve better)
We should be together girl (baby)
With me and you it's whatever girl, hey!
So can we make this thing ours?

You should let me love you
Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need
Baby good love and protection
Make me your selection
Show you the way love's supposed to be
Baby you should let me love you, love you, love you

Tears of Joy

She looks at me
I fake a smile so she won't see
What I want and I need
And everything that we should be

I'll bet he's great
That guy she talks about
And he's got everything
That I have to live without

she talks to me
I can't even see
Anyone when she's with me

she says she's so in love
She's finally got it right
I wonder if she knows
she's all I think about at night

she's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
she's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

She walks by me
Can she tell that I can't breathe?
And there she goes, so perfectly
The kind of flawless I wish I could be

He better hold her tight
He better treat her right
Give her all his love
Look in those beautiful eyes
And know he's lucky 'cause

She's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
She's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

So I drive home alone
As I turn out the light
I'll put her picture down
And maybe get some sleep tonight

'Cuz She's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
She's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

She's the time taken up but there's never enough
And she's all that I need to fall into
She looks at me
I fake a smile so she won't see

CoNfUsEd

Confusion all around
I don't know how i feel
but I feel something
too hard for mere words to describe

you bring me joy
but also a feeling of loneliness
when you are not around

You're the real deal I think
without you I’m not quite complete
One part divided in two

sometimes it kinda hurts

on the horizon

What if I were smiling and running into your arms? Would you see then what I see now?

To my best friend....you know who you are

God placed you in my life,

Only 6-7 months ago,

a time of pain, anguish, loneliness and strife

But you made it all better,

you brought me back into the light

 SO

If one day you feel like crying
call me
I don't promise you that
I will make you laugh
but I can cry with you

If one day you want to run away
don't be afraid to call me
I don't promise to ask you to stop
but I can run with you

I'll need you soon, i just know i will,

But it's good to know

The nicest place in the world...
Is right beside a friend like you!!!

I send this little message
with a flower just for you
because you are so special
and just so thoughtful to

I've just been so very blessed
to have found you as a friend
and any time you need of it
I've got a hand to lend  

we confide in each other

and not dare tell another

God placed you in my life,

Only 6-7 months ago,

a time of pain, anguish, loneliness and strife

A time of new beginnings for me which was tainted with troubles

But you made it all better,

you brought me back to the light

I'll never let you get hurt,

I'll wont allow it to happen,

Your too precious to me

I'll guide you if you want me to

But i wont compromise what we have

You know my past, the present

and my future aspirations

Nobody else knows those things

I never wanna lose you,

you are easy to be with

you are easy to talk with

you are easy to love

You are my best friend ...

if you've read this... tell me

Someday

I want to give you all of me - the underneath
Want you to show me imperfection is actually love
I thought, cursed - I was cursed -
Destined to be lonely
A circle in a world of squares
Where nobody knows me

So with every footstep I must
follow the little moments
I thought were impossible

Breathe gentle, Be gentle
Don't leave me behind
Cause love goes faster
Breathe gentle, Be gentle
Never let me go when love goes faster
I will be gentle

See, photographs have only two dimensions
But love defies all logic in a picture
Above all that is physical, I'm falling
Falling uncontrollably - it terrifies me

So if my compass, it fails me
And I feel I'm walking blind
Don't say goodbye
Don't let me hide
Oh please don't let me spiral

Tortured by you, oh, sweet torture!
I am a pirate - love my fortune
The walls have fallen now
The key is yours to turn - I'm breathing

Breathe gentle, Be gentle
Don't leave me behind
cause love goes faster
Breathe gentle, Be gentle
Never let me go when love goes faster
I will be gentle

Every time I run somehow love is faster
Without you loneliness is everlasting
I still feel you
But I hear you - loudly
Screaming - "please wait for me"
Cause I don't want to hurt you
But I don't want to loose love this time.

Those EyEs

a smile can mask your true feelings ...but the eyes are the windows to the soul.... they never lie

This is my life

When you were here before,
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel,
Your skin makes me cry

You float like a feather
In a beautiful world,
I wish I was special
You're so fuckin' special

But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
Do I belong here

I don't care if it hurts,
I wanna have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul

I want you to notice
when I'm not around
You're so fuckin' special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
Do I belong here, ohhhh, ohhhh

She's running out again
She's running out
She run run run run...
run... run...

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so fuckin' special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
Do I belong here

Do I belong here...